LOVE

That night when I arrived I saw my wife is busy preparing dinner, I called her and hold her hands and I said I need to talk to you about something serious, she slowly sat down and wait to hear me. She looked upset and I saw the sadness shadow on her eyes. I didn't know how I should say it, I couldn't open my mouth , but any how I had to tell her about what make my mind busy. The main issue was I wanted to divorce her. Finally, I said whatever was in it before. "why"? she asked. I find it hard to make a convicing answer. When she saw me sitting quiet, she left the dinning room and shouted "your not a man". We didn't talk about it again that night, she kept crying very quietly and smoothly like (spring rain). I knew she wants to know how it happen to our love, but it was so hard to find the answer....becouse I fall in love with the young girl named "Lili" and I had no feeling for my wife..! my wife and I have been stranger to each other since long time ago, I feel pity on her.

Therefore, I have got an agreemnet divorce paper, I gave her, the house and 30% of the office and car. She had look at those papers and torn them. I felt so sorry for the woman who I've lived for ten years with her and now she became a stranger to me. I knew she spent all her faith, beauties and kindness for me all these years but it was too late I've already fall in love. My wife began to cry loud, that was what I expected. Finally she found the little brush divorce took place.

The day after, I came home very late and saw the letter left on the table, I didn't care and went to my room I felt deep sleep. When I woke up I saw the letter is still there. When I read the letter, she didn't want anything from me, except that this month before divorce I pay attention to her and she asked to live together as normal as before as far as possible; this request was so simple becouse my son had an important exam and my wife didn't want our sepration get him in trouble, this request was eccaptable for me; but she wanted something strange. She said remember the first days after our marriage crossing the threshold; then she asked me to left her on my arams and walk from our bedroom to the house gate every morning. I thought she had loosed her mind but then I thought I should not refuse her last request. Day after when I saw Lili I told her about my wife's strange request she laught out loud as she said "your wife had to know that we are together, and now no matter what tricks she wants to play."

It has been such a long time that I had no conection with my wife untill the day I accepted to left my arms and walk for 10 meters, both of us had such a strange feeling, my son was fallowing us and kept saying " Dadi's holding mum and walks...Dadi go... go....". my son words could brights a light in my heart. My wife closed her eyes and whispered in my ear don't tell anything about our divorce to our son; Suddenly I felt so sad. Finally we have reached the gate and I put her down, she walked to her bus stop and I drove to my office.

On the second day, we did the same move and both of us felt closer and more comfortabl; this time I looked at her face, I just noticed of some lines around her eyes and among some of her hair appearance gray; I could smell her perfume which I have forgatten since long ago. I was thinking that it was such a long time that I didn't pay an attention to my wife, seems like I haven't seen her for long time and I know I didnt care enough for her. For few moment, I thought oh god what I did to her!?

On fourth day, I felt sence of closness, I thought something is happening to my heart again, I felt alive again. This woman has shared ten years of her life with me. Day fifth and sixth, I strongly knew there is still feeling for my wife and that feeling was love but I had forgotten about it. I was seeing Lili everyday but I refer to not say anything to her. Each day passed I felt stronger to carry my wife and that amazed me, how it happen in few days. I saw her choosing her cloths carefully. "all my cloths are big".She calmly said. It was like a blow, I wasn't stronger, she lost so much weight. In this short time she had endured so much pain and suffered, (her body melt bit by bit). I got unconscious stroked her head. My son was seeing me carry his mother everyday and embrace a path to reconition his life was sweet.

The last day I did the same route as before, I carried her to the gate, I hardly could walk, when I put her down I wished that these days never came over, my feeling for her was strong as first day I met her. I looked at her catching bus to work I though, in all these years I was not given to lack of intimacy and closness in my marriage. I drove fast to my work, when I reached the bulding, I ran to my office, I didn't want to suspect what I have decided. Lili opened the door, "I'm sorry, I don't wanna divorce my wife". I said. She surprised, looked at me and said: "are you okay?" She touched my forehead "I think you have fever". She said. I knocked her hand away, "NO! I'm not". "Sorry I don't want the sepration, I love my wife. I don't want to lose her in anyway. My life was boring, not becouse we didn't love each other, becouse nor me either her weren't aware of small details in life." Lili was just like waking up, she yell at me and shut the door on me. I didn't waste time, I left to buy basket of romantic flowers for my wife. "what text you want me to write on the basket?" the florist girl asked me. I smiled and said: I always embrace you and carry you, I step with love.. I will love you till the end... and only death can seprate us.